Wednesday, October 7, 2009

Me. Worried? Nah!

I am sitting here with lots of thoughts going through my mind. I can’t seem to grab one thought and hold onto it though. Lately, my life has been in the fast lane. I’ve hardly had anytime for myself. I have been going and going and going (sounds like the energizer bunny, huh?)

I get up in the morning, I love on my Tipi girl (my doggie), I eat a bowl of cereal, I go to classes, I come home and walk Tipi (she’s a little overweight, so I’m trying to change that so she will have a longer healthier life…and for your information, her obesity is not my fault. It’s my grandparent’s fault. My Pawpaw STILL slips her bacon under the table.) Anyway… after I walk the dog, I normally trot back up to the school to spend the rest of the night in the library working on some type of project. I’m in Advanced Public Speaking, so we have a lot of speeches to present and guess what?…..They’re advanced! Advanced is another word that means… time-consuming to the point of insanity. Then on top of that I have my senior project that is progressing, and I have my Spanish class that is the devil incarnate and 3 other classes that would make Obama write another stimulus package.

So anyway… when I do have a little extra time I will go to the gym to work out. Why? Because I live in a society that reflects highly on image, and I just so happen to pick the career field that is the most tedious of all on image reflection. However, I am not a gym lover. I’m not an exercise freak, and I’m not a health food junkie. So you can see where my problem lies, right?

Anyway… I am sitting here on the couch tonight… Tipi Tot is at my feet (she was at my side…but both of us can’t sit on the couch side by side because half of one of us is always hanging off.) I am trying to grasp hold of a few things in my mind. Most of it reflects on my career. I am not sure which area to shoot for first. I have an idea, but is it the right one? Will I be accepted? Will I make the most of it? Or Will I even get a job? Will it be the right one to start off with?

All of these questions are making room for “fear” to arise. It’s in my throat. To know that I only have two months of school left, and then I have to make a decision. I have to sort out all the files in my mind and prioritize them. I need a starting point of where I want to go in life. But where? I have an idea, but is it right?

Then it’s the worry of being 23 and knowing the last time that I dated a guy was back when I put little circles over the tops of my lowercase “i’s.” Mostly all of my friends I went to school with are married with children or engaged or in an extremely serious relationship with a guy and engagement is just around the corner for them. Me, however? I had planned to be married by 23 and kids by 24. Well… I’ve already passed my time limit… well for one of them anyway, however, one ain’t happening without the other! I can sure tell ya that much!

But anyway… amidst all of these chaotic thoughts, there’s something that always restores my peace-of-mind.

In Matthew chapter 6, verses 25-34, Jesus talks about worry. In fact, He even accuses His disciples (the ones who left everything to follow Him) of having little faith. Well, I can’t really say accused… because He KNEW they did. Imagine that, disciples of Christ failing on a daily basis. Who would have thought? :)

But Jesus teaches in this chapter that we should not worry. That God will always provide for us. He will always lead us to where He wants us to be.

What spoke to my heart tonight though, is that I don’t have to worry about tomorrow. I don’t have to worry about my next step… because I have the ultimate muscle that is going to take it for me….faith in God. He will not let us grow tired, and He will not let our lives be lived with anything that falls below abundance. My God is mighty to save and our fortress in time of need. He will direct our paths and give us a hope for our future. And He will impregnate our hearts with His desires for our life….and He will do it at just the right time. All we have to do is keep the faith and press on.

So do not worry…your heavenly Father knows what you need. –Instead of getting caught up in worry, -- seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Matthew 6:31-34

8 comments:

Taylor said...

hey Miranda! i can relate to that post...i'm so glad that our Lord is FAITHFUL! blessing to you friend...keep trusting Him! i'm about to study for an exam that is...tomorrow! ahh. have a good night.

::Taylor

Mercy Abounds said...

Didn't know you had a blog! I'm so glad I found it! I will be linking your blog to mine so my folks can read your posts.
My address is www.mercyabounds.blogspot.com and give me a visit!
Love ya!
Jamie Thompson

Morgan Lea @ GloryFIlled said...

I don't know how I found your blog but,I'm glad I did and I'll be back.

Deirdre said...

Miranda,
I always enjoy reading your comments on the LPM blog. It is so wonderful to see your youthful exuberance for our KING!

keep your head up. I know God will find a way for you to come to Houston in January.

Deirdre

Judy from NC said...

Just saw your blog on the LPL post this morning and decided to read about a siesta who is also going to Houston. Sorry I'm not driving as it would have been fun to chat along the way with you, but I will see you there! From your post it sounds like maybe we have been learning some of the same verses. Mine this month was about us having a future and a hope. (Prov 23:18) and Prov 3:5& 6 is my life verse. I am also praying for some miraculous extra funding for my trip. God will make a way and we can praise Him together in Houston.
Now I am off to teach Esther week 5 this morning. God bless you!

Miranda said...

Thanks Judy! I sure love your Faith!

I am totally praying that God would provide a way for me to get to Houston, as of right now I don't have any money for the drive and definitely no money for a hotel room.

However, if it is in His will for me to celebrate with the rest of you wonderful women of God... then I know He will provide and I will look forward to fellowshipping with y'all!!!!

Girl.. we have been memorizing similiar verses. Both of these are about direction... Psalm 32:8, Jeremiah 33:3. LOVE them!

Blessings!!

amberlashay said...

What an awesome blog you've written. This just touches me in a special way. I have been so worried about my life-how I'm to juggle all the things to come next semester and I'm so glad that the Lord led me to your blog. You are a true asset to the kingdom. May God continue to richly bless you!!!

Miranda said...

Awww that's great amberlashay!

It's so fun how God will do that at just the right times. Praise Him!

You're getting ready for your next semester? What year are you in?

Girl, cling tightly to Him.... it's the only way to keep your sanity in school. (Ha!)

I hope you'll come back!!
Blessings girl!